Freedom, I seek

I'm being very lazy.

Hmm, spin the bottle and destiny awaits

Oh wow, I just realised that it have been ages since I last visited this blog. Well, I'm breathing again and soon to be dead. I'm confused and puzzled. My life is just filled with complications and I'm not sure how to solve it.

I don't know what is happening. I'm feeling as though I've been left out and I'm non existence. It sucks.

Retaining have shown the true colour of people. I'm sure of it. I've honestly seen it. Some 'friends' are just leaving you because you're a loser in their eyes. Just tell me the truth, I want it.

True friends? Think again

Friendship

Just realised how sad my life really is. It’s all about friendship that is really troubling me. I have no idea why am I thinking so much when I have my promos to pull through. That was super anti-climax but back to the subject, how long do I wish my friendship will last? 5 to 6 years? No! I want it for eternity! But in reality, you can’t get everything you wish. Some friends come and go. Rarely do you find a friend that sticks to you so closely that you actually feel that they are part of your family! While Suria and I were heading home from millennia this evening, we had this long talk about our family and friends. I’m really envious of her having this friend ever since she was primary one. And the best part is that they are still very close! How awesome can that be! How I wish I could be in her shoes, having friends that treasure each other.

I feel that I have drifted so far away from my secondary school friends. A moment ago, we were hanging out together at the next moment, POOF, we are all on different worlds. You have your own life and I have mine. It’s like we barely meet up anymore! As a matter or fact, I realised that some of my friends are treating me really differently from the day we first met. It’s not recently but it has been going for quite some time. I’m not sure if it is just me being overly sensitive but I really miss the good old times when we had fun and talked a lot. I would rather you being straight with me and tell me what I did wrong and what I should change rather than you being cold towards me. Being faced by a cold treatment really sucks. You have no idea what you did wrong and when you try to clarify, you get ignored. I really want to change to become a better person but first, I have to know what I have to change! Please help me. I don’t care if you’re going to embarrass me or what, just tell me how I can change!

Friends (generally), we used to text and talk to each other so much! And now, we’re drifted so far apart, so far to the extent that we have become acquaintance. Was it a misunderstanding? Was it something that I did? What did I do to make you behave like that? Sometimes, phone can really deceive a person. I sense biasness, I sense unfairness, but well, what can I do?

After my promos, instead of drawing a family tree, I think I should draw a friendship tree. From there, I think I will be able to figure out those who will stick with you when you’re experiencing trouble and those who will just disappear right after your studies. I would really want to see who are my true friends.

From there we part

I just can't stand how some Singaporeans really are. Where are their conscience?! This was really an eye opener on Singaporeans. Generally, all Singaporeans are bastards and bitches at heart.

No one was willing to give up their seats to this disabled woman who had difficulty walking and standing! NOT ONE PERSON! Some of them saw but they REFUSES to offer their seats. The best was this woman that sat on the priority seat. She stared at the woman, and continued reading her newspaper. COME ON WOMAN, LOOK AT WHAT SEAT YOU'RE SEATING! I just hope that one day, there will be retribution brought upon you and you shall regret what you did that day.

_l_ Singaporeans really need to be taught. Maybe the government should imposed fines on those who doesn't give up their seats for those in need since Singaporeans are so anal with money. Fuck all those that saw and didn't give up their seat to that disabled woman. How I wish I could just slap you all in the face and ask you to wake up. How I wish...